Take time to love yourself more 🌻

 Being alone has always seen in such a way that it has arose fear in myself . I was and maybe still am so afraid of giving myself a personal space whenever I need it . I just try to find the easiest way to escape , yeah bcz everyone does that now a days ig . 

We feel, staying alone or giving time to ownself is so depressing , that's how our thinking process works . We are afraid of the solution and instead we try to escape . It has been one year or more than that , I'm still figuring out the problem , the situation which triggers my anxiety . Yes , I'm facing anxiety attacks for more than a year . 

                         I am afraid of giving time to myself to figure it out properly but instead I always try to keep myself busy in the crowd or something else that keep me distracted .In person I'm really very active , who can talk like shit for the whole day , who can just laugh and dance around , enjoys every moment . But idk what triggers me when I sit with myself , cannot think about anything and all of a sudden start crying and goes on . 

Sometimes I feel I'm so tired of understanding life and myself but no I cannot do this because somehow it will again come into my way . At this point am just confuse what to do and what not to , maybe I need to seek for my own mental peace by giving myself space because if you don't know about yourself you can never know about anything . So, now I'll try to provide myself a safe space .

 You know what, people are very harsh for themselves as pain is the only way that can help them to achieve what they want , am not claiming that this is totally wrong but everything is so subjective . Take time because the more you ignore more it becomes intense and don't take yourself so seriously , enjoy , prioritise what's good for you and observe the things instead of absorbing them i.e. let them flow . Smile through it , cry out loud , accept whatever you feel and love yourself more along with this process. 

                                                Love y'all<3