life it is

 A dream ! We are all allowed to have . For me this life it is and I do have it , living it . I'm 19 and when I look back seems like all that have passed just happened with one blink and now I'm here . When I was 15 , I decided to move out . And again 2 years later decided to move farther , my home is 1600 km far and I visit my parents only in summer vacations . Today I just want to talk my heart out because I had a talk with my mom today and during that conversation I've discovered what I am actually looking for , from this life , from myself . For me it is everything and on the flip side it is nothing if I truly see within myself. I want to explore as much as I can and want to come back to the core , roots because now I know where I belong . And the best part of this life is surprises , I know , I do have a fictional story of my own exactly similar to the movies I prefer watching . So .... OK , I mean I am not supposed to share all these but it's just fictional right and i'm not expecting anything out of this , so not an issue ig .

" I'm imagining myself grown , I'm not very fond of name and fame in life . I've completed my required education and eligible for job by which I can earn enough to look for my family . There's only me and  my Mom Dad . Now I want to stay with them because after 15, I left home and never lived the same life . I have a beautiful home in one of the place like Nanital or Shiliguri . I've all the best cotton sarees , I travel a lot , meet lot of people ,  sometimes I film and cook simple food . I run a small business which I once dreamt with my mom . I meet my old friends occationally . Apart from all these , I'm balancing my professional life . I still more often listen to Robindro shongeet and George Harrison and my favourite preme pora barong. "

So for now this is it , I'll add more as the time passes . You know I like this time so much , It's like I'm not running from anything . I am breathing every second of it . Deep down I have developed the faith and hope with I had lost for a while and maybe after some time I'll start talking about spirituality and power of faith n everything . I've not known it so well but slowly I am .