Ocean

How far can I dive within , 

I feel a painless death 

brings me a sense of relief 

To make me feel I am alive.

The absurdity of world I see

Then I look for the reality 

A lie which never existed 

Nothing existed , yet I found.

I fear these huge waves ,

In the middle of the ocean.

Ocean knows its limits ,

But I never did.

It starts from one sea shore 

Ends to the other,

Still waves around 

I have reached nowhere.

But one day , I know;

Day when no waves ,

No fear will stop me 

To dive into the ocean.

It takes life and everything 

But nothing asks ,

I think I can survive this , 

but not this world .

Even if I conquer this whole,

how will it end .

What has meaning and not ,

Am I really ready to dive within?

When has life  stopped to be meaningful?  Am I the only one to see it ? This world is now how it is seen , ocean was never huge or loud unless I decided to dive in one day . As I have started this journey , I don't know will I survive because nothing seems real . I can never get the answers of all the why questions I have ever asked . How can I even accept anything coming along the way , should I listen to my heart? or books or what ?